Rant about 2025

Sooo…This year is coming to an end and so many things happend. One lf them is that I fell in love again after 3 years and got rejected yet again. This year wasn‘t a good year like I hoped so many things happend many awful some beatiful but mostly awful. This year finished so fast half of it was realtalk a blurr most of the time and its scaring me tbh and I am close to finishing school which is even more scarier. I feel alone all the time  I‘m always left out, my friends don‘t really talk with me anymore which is so depressing because mostly I was at home and was rotting in my bed or playing video games this year. There was this girl which I knever really acknowledged before we had a good chemistry together ngl we both liked playing Minecraft ,had the same interest and even the same fashion style and of course I fell In love which I deeply regret now because I cant stop thinking about her. We chatted non-stop but know its super dry and I dont know what to do because I think she knows that I like her but I dont want to ruin our friendship or whatever we had. I dont want to lose it.