Why?

Lately been feeling like absolute shit. I have no energy to do anything. Why do i feel this way? I want to be happy but all i feel is ... numbness. I want to love.. but the feelings went away. Even towards my family. What do i do? Should i talk to you? would you hate me? .. I wish you would. I'm nothing special. I'm weighing you down. Open your eyes and see me for what i am.