its been a while since ive used spacehey so have a summary of whats happened so far.

okay hey. 

 im writing this while im on my winter break because school has been so stressful, im stuck doing fuckass IGCSE's since my school decided to get colonized after mid-term break. im literally writing this while i still have the chance because im gonna be doing winter break homework after this. i found a vpn that worked while i was at school so i could use spacehey but i keep on getting sidetracked with work, GOD forbid i have priorities.

i headass dont think anyone is reading these blogs since its more personal but i dont plan on stopping anytime soon. ill give my updates on life, some things are new and some are just adding onto my previous blogs.

1.  ive come to terms that the cafeteria mac n cheese is actually really good compared to the other foods being sold there. the whole "a trash compacter wouldnt be able to crush this frozen block of cheese" was just based off of one unlucky day. they make the mac n cheese every monday and i keep on forgetting to buy it (i regret it every time).
2. ive made a ton of new friends. a bunch of new people moved into the school this year and they were all really chill. i go on the bus with one of them and we have similar music tastes so thats fun!!
3. (this one is heavily based on my previous blog post so skip over it) i was right about singer being an ass. nobody in the band was exactly plotting against me but some were shit talking me. singer has been shit talking everyone and she never got held accountable for it. i could go on and on about her being terrible to me even outside of the band but im just too tired for it. additionally though, i havent been trying to hide that i dislike her and now shes trying to turn my own friends against me. especially this one girl im extremely close with who also happens to be her childhood friend.
4. making a new point for this but just know its kinda of a continuation of the last part. ive been getting really close with that girl. like REALLY close. i think she might have a crush on me but its not exactly something im against??? its just something im not used to. i feel like i can be vulnerable around her but whenever she opens up to me i feel like i fumble it all up but she still stays with me. im still trying to figure out my feelings so take this with a grain of salt.
5. i might try and post the photos i take while im in lebanon on here. i might have to post them on pinterest or tumblr and then post them here because i genuinely have no idea how to do it any other way. im not a photographer by any means (as i was typing this i was about to write "by" as "buy" im actually so cooked) but i thought itd be nice to share what lebanon looks like. searching up "lebanon" usually gets you images of explosions, beautiful views, or where it is on the map. i want to show the small details i find enjoyable within my country. like the graffiti, the weather, the plants, or just whatever i can find. but if anyone wants to see the bloodshed happening here i can take photos of buildings that have fallen victim to the bombs. 
6. ive just kinda accepted ill never be able to rejoin the band ever again since the music teacher doesnt know what a bass is (im a bassist)

thats the best summary i can give without it being too much. if i had the energy i would begin listing off everything singer did and everything singer did to the girl i may or may not have a crush on (this runs deep). id also talk about my own personal goals and opinions but i have to study so that can all wait.

i dont know why i thought writing all of this would be a good idea when i know for a fact that nobody reads these but its nice to imagine somebody does.