Another little rant of mine

edit: sorry about the messy writing, I'm pretty upset I can't even write properly.

I'm feeling kinda hopeless lately.

I've been creating stuff I like and I do enjoy the results. I do believe my art holds a beuty within and that can reach people to inspire them, or something along those lines. But the things I must do to make it official (paperwork, taxes, contacting dozens of ppl) feel so impossible to do. Like, in this day and age, there's like thousands of procedures just to ensure you're the author of a piece, and if you want to use a pseudonym for your work, it gets messier. And you have to pay a tax for each procedure??? Like, c'mon, man. I just want to use a different name.

Yeah, I know, self-publishing is the best option, but, who would see your art? Might aswell ensure a public before publishing and spending more money on materials. And who will see your art if not even the people arround you seem to be interested on your art (not you, Mobus, I owe you your comissions still, sorry about that). I feel like in a vicious cycle of inspiration-creation-realization-desmotivation.

That doesn't keep me from creating, tho. It's the only thing that keeps me alive at this point, tbh. But wanting to share it, feels impossible.

Idk, man. Maybe I'm just really upset rn. Maybe tomorrow I'll forget about this and start self-publishing without doubting it anymore.