I think I need help💔 (kind of a vent)

I've been at the same work for days and still haven't made any progress😭 and the work isn't even hard to do, but for some reason I keep feeling overwhelmed while doing it💔 I knew I had to get it done but I felt like I was stuck in place. And I kept getting distracted by my phone, youtube, my spacehey profile, or my own thoughts while daydreaming. I was telling myself "you've been here for hours and haven't gotten a single thing done." I tried to get back to work but I just felt so impatient for some reason.

I had to look for sources for the assignment but it felt like my brain didn't even want to read the words. I couldn't help but skim through it even if I tried to read it. And mind you I've been procrastinating on this same work for WEEKS and I always turn in work late. I have trouble prioritizing and managing my time properly😞 And I always find myself distracted by my phone, something else on my computer, or my daydreams even though I keep telling myself "you need to get your work done you have terrible grades" but I just can't put it into action.

Another thing is I have trouble with motivation and putting in effort for things even if they're important, because if I think I won't be able to understand it then my brain starts avoiding it. I'm really stupid so whenever I'm given an assignment that I can't understand then I always avoid doing it. Even if it's the littlest detail that I don't have an answer to, I can't get it done because I don't wanna mess it up. And I always get told by my mom "just ask for help" but it's hard to do that if everyone around me treats every question I ask like a stupid question.

Everyone else knows everything that I don't. I can't understand the simplest things that everyone should already know. I learned to do the most basic things later than everyone else. I get told I'm stupid and lazy all the time and honestly they might be right💔 I always start things but never finish them and I'm always doing things I'm not supposed to be doing while I'm trying to get work done. As I'm typing this I still haven't finished the work. My parents don't even have any faith in me that I'll make it to college anymore.

I forget directions even after they were just told to me and even if they're simple. I even lose common sense when I'm asked to do something because I don't wanna end up doing something wrong, but I still do. When there's important work that I haven't gotten done then my friends always tell me about how bad it is that I didn't do it. I know I'm complaining about something that's completely my fault but idk I just feel like I'm not gonna be anything in life