Things moving on [CW again]

Yoo,

While tentative about this statement: things have been getting better.

I still _don't_ have a job. The past few months I kinda gave up due to the sheer amount of impossible jobs to get into. Had some time working, 6 months total, family connections.

Unfortunately, I stopped playing Fighting Games as vigorously as I once had been. But more recently I've been enthused by a new fightstick lever I got - so that's fun. Missed the first French EVO event, and what would likely be the last I'd ever think of going to after EVO got its new Saudi sponsorship. So EVO is kinda jank for me now, but that means all I have to do is set my sights on different events, which I'm absolutely fine with.

I'm currently learning to drive cars and ride motorcycles. The catalyst for this was just how long some of the commutes were. I think I'm completely fine commuting via public transport if there's only one connection.. but having to hop buses or trains and the total commute being more than an hour? Sheesh, I'd much rather ride a motorcycle to work for that kinda distance. Combined with the fact that it's simpler to get a car driving license and then motorcycle instead of the other way around, I'm doing the two. Plus, it would present a few more opportunities for me that way (not that they're great, but I'll take what I can get, whether if in the meantime or indefinite).

I've also been on DIY HRT for almost a year. I've been feeling better, and me tits have grown in a bit. This plus good hair removal and working out would make for a body I'll be very glad to, well, be. Right now it's fine. I've been the same weight for more than a year, so I'm not worried about gaining anymore - and it does mean that I don't have to be too concerned about gaining weight on feminine hormones since it hasn't happened. Buuuut, I have gotten a bit weaker. It's okay. Recently, I've gotten the drive to get back into powerlifting, so that should be good. The thing with bodies is that, barring certain disorders, bodies adapt to their constant environment. My constant environment has been either sitting (or sometimes standing) all day - the most efficient way for it to be is how it is right now. But I want things to change, and it only will if I change them.

One thing I've already changed is getting more stylish ( ▀ ͜͞ʖ▀)

It's really fun to come up with outfits that make you look and feel good.

In my experience, depression isn't a battle, it's a long war. One of those long ones where it's not at full intensity all the time, but definitely a factor in everything pertaining to everyday life. One person alone can't win it, but they can survive - and even help the people close to them.