Hopeless (of my 1st poems lolz)

Hopeless

I wake up late, feeling sorrow.

My energy starts to drain,

I wait for tommorow but it's never what I hope.

I stare blankly at the ceiling, waiting, praying, hoping for it to get better. 

It won't.. it wouldn't. 

It isn't fair, I thought, but perhaps it is.

Its' cold hands wrap around my mind, feeding on my pain.

I deserve it.. I deserve it. 

I wake up.. I sleep.. I smile briefly all before returning to my room.

I walk aimlessly around the hallways of my mind, memories, reminders of what I did, what I could've done. 

I want the pain to stop.

I want it to go away..

It's all blurry though and I can't tell where I am.

I look down and there it is once again.

It wraps its' sorrow around my wrists, I know what comes next.

I wake up again. 

Was it all a dream?

The scars are still there though.

They will always be there to haunt me.

I want to stop, but the feeling is so enticing.

I remember this occurrence as I stare into the darkness of the water below.

Is this it?

Was it all a waste?

Perhaps so,

I take a step forward, hopeless.