soooo like i have a crush rn

recently ive had my mind on someone in my class since we had a school camp trip smth. lets call him devon, he is one the smartest guys in our class but tbh i feel like he looks down on some of the people on my class even me becuz of the glaze he gets . lowk im pretty ass at academics like im not academically intelligent but i get decent grades. plus its hard to talk to him bc one: hes deaf on one ear , two: too much people talk to him  three: i think hes scared of talking to girls(kinda stupid but whateva) 

tbh hes been on my mind so much recently, i cant believe i used to hate him. but now i respect him, not glaze but respect him. i rlly cant stop thinking abt him.

theres a girl in my class that i lowk think likes him or smth and she is waaaaay better than me like she is prettier and smarter and more liked than i am. i would be happy for her if she ends up being with him someday,  as long he's happy, im happy for him too

ive told a friend of mine abt him, she was kinda suprised bc she was wondering why tf would i hate him for so long.

i feel like a fucking weirdo. he probably has a bad impression of me. 

he feels like a cool person to have as a friend and i feel like im missing out on so much

fuck i hate overthinking

(note: im typing ts while listening to last night on earth by green day lol)