I want to feel pretty

Hai! its sienna! 

God i blog a lot...ima die one day and get my archives sent to a museume in 100 years.... 

Finals week is coming up im kinda nervous you know, math is hard and i am horrible at writing essays for my mid term. Lately idk i feel like ive eaten too much and im full all the time. And some weeks its fine and im fine and i feel normal. But other weeks i feel like the ugilest person ever. Like i feel so ugly and lowkey like fat and that i dont desever to be sad. Like i dont know how to explain it... i feel like a venter. Wtv... but yeah i feel like i dont deserve to be called pretty or for people to be like oh my good ur so pretty. When i know im not. Like it feels like i can never fully know how i look, like if a random person would look at me would they think im ugly. Thats my biggest fear.  Like im not even trying to be like...oh my god shower me in compliments..im just confused on what i look like. I have a warped percipetion of my self, so i really dont know how to decribe myself so i go from like dating expirences. Like logically that should like hint me about how i look to the public (but theres a huge margin of error since i dont really ask people out) am  a tweaker? I swear no one really thinks this much. Like my self confidence is better compared to like my whole life but i still can pin point if its just my brain telling me i look better. I want to feel pretty. I see girls who are so pretty and they feel pretty and im like i wonder how i look compared to them. Ima write a normal blog soon...i promise... ive been venting on here a lot people are going to think im scizo...

This was just a short fun blog, sorry abt spelling errors....im typing quick and i dont have an autocorrecter on my phone

-XOXO Sienna