you cannot keep running away

well, this is kind of pointed towards me after my realization ㅠㅠ maybe it’s kind of a vent blog but i think it’s important to me to write out

i have realized that i always run from the new and unknown, no matter how small it is! it’s like im trying to protect myself from messing up, but i had quit before i even begun.

i had been feeling antsy to just quit everything. quit my education and quit my dreaming. it’s all too scary. but i’m doing that thing again. so i have to echo in my own brain “don’t run.” over and over.

life is unpredictable and scary. but i’ve got to go through it! even if things turn out shit. so what? at least i did something! i want to promise myself to not run anymore. i’m not the most loyal when it comes to self-promises, if i’m honest. but running isn’t living. I know it’s not good for me  so i want to resist it  

instead, i’ve got to dare to do things. i will try my best. 

im brave im brave we ball we ball we ball