How selfcare currents shape our future

At 15, I was lost. I had just finished secondary school, I didn't know what to do with myself. Around that time, Wonyoungism was being born. And as a 15 year old, I followed the current, I let it drag and erode me. I let it shape me, i allowed the trend to polish the person I was back then.

It started with a mindset, I wasn't doing anything, I was just thinking that good things would happen. It went on with selfcare, workouts, skincare routines. I had too much free time within my hands back then, and I know I wasted it all.

Wonyoungism taught something my 15 year old self couldn't wrap her brain around, life was still going on after Covid. It taught me that there was still a future for me. Even if I couldn't totally belive it yet. Wonyoungism taught me that i just needed to work hard for my wishes.

Later on, it also taught me how important educating one self was, how important training the brain was. 

Then, it wasn't wonyoungism anymore. It twitched and switched, it was something unique. Something so utterly mine that I couldn't find anyone else following it. And it allowed me to learn that I don't need to belong to a group on everything I do.

It's been 4 years now, and I need to awknoledge how a movement i followed for barely 2 months when I was 15 has allowed me to be who I am. 

Even if I don't "journal" the tiktok way anymore, even if I don't dress like that anymore, even if I don't draw like I did back then, even if I don't write like that anymore, even if I have moved on on the interests I had back then. 

It made me realize that I wanted to be educated to an extent where I would struggle to find a new matter to learn about. That I wanted to fill my brain to the point where alzheimer would be my only way of discovering new things to love, even if they weren't actually new. 

Thanks to those currents, my future looks brighter than yesterday and gloomier than tomorrow.