Entry #2 Ranting About Friends and Immaturity

if you get uncomfy at any time, then feel free to not read!! (have a good rest of your day if so)

heya! im just gonna start i guess.. 

one thing i dont really like about making friends is when i have to make friends within my age group. every time ive "made friends" with people at my age-range, they are unnecessarily dramatic and always looking for problems. not in a mean way of course, but that makes sense right? 

anyway. they just arent mature at all and have a black/white thinking process. i get that they're young, but whenever i hang out with someone in my age-group, i feel like a mother caring for their kids, or a teacher of sorts. 

and maybe i can attribute this to having to care for myself at only 8, but still, i wish people within my age-range could grow up a little bit. i understand both sides, ill get to that in a minute though.

the worst part for me is how unbearable talking about serious subjects is. i understand that as a child, your brain is still developing and it isnt unusual for being avoidant of said topic but it really annoys me. i enjoy talking about politics and mental health so it would be reasonable for me to confide in friends towards that topic correct? i guess not apparently. 

the people in my age bracket are so avoidant for some reason as well. they dont know how to seriously talk about something. talking behind peoples backs is way too normalized, if you have a problem with someone, then why are you talking to someone else about it instead of explaining your issue to the person you're upset with? you wouldnt be in the wrong for saying something if they lash out (depending on the issue).

oh and like the people within my agegroup are also afraid of being "controversial" and treat being even slightly weird or having different opinions as literal treason. i do not understand why its shunned for simply liking certain media just for the reason of "oh well (blank) didnt like it, so neither should you" type of crowd mentality. its very childish. i have the same thoughts on dni lists, i believe that its immature. setting boundaries is good, yes, but i shouldnt be on a dni list for liking something "weird". 

it hurts me to see when its clear someones going through something and its just right there in your face, yet the person gets shunned off of the internet over a simple mistake, etc. people act like bullying is ok and it really isnt at all, it just proves your immaturity and how uncapable you are of simple communication. 

adding onto it, the topic of proship and darkship. they constantly get shunned and people are so painfully ignorant as to why they do it. they do it for a reason, and bullying, death threats, etc arent the solution. they need help, not another source of issues with another traumatized person who indulges in that content because of a myriad of reasons. the thing is, they usually stem from a young age, and get groomed into that type of thing. they cannot just stop if its already wired that hard into their brain. 

its clear they're in pain and need guidance and help. some people cant afford help of course, and some just dont want to for personal reasons, but why would anyone want to add on to a poor persons suffering? that is truely just evil to me. if they're young, they can still be helped regardless. death threats and shit like that just isolates the person in pain, which can lead to bad things happening. it doesnt help, it just "proves" to the person that they wont get accepted any other way, which leads to more indulgence into harmful behaviors and giving in, not getting better.

now this is the end of my rant, id love to see other peoples perspective on things so uh, yeah. keep it respectful though thanks. bye :>