Unsuccessful content creator

That's me, hi. I have been editing for over 2 years now. Me and my friend, who just started wditing in jan and me joined yt at the same time. Today, s has 650 subs on her unwatchable, crap edits. Im stuck on 500. And 450 vids... thats so insane, is hard work really even worth it anymore...? Also on insta, i have 190 vids... 35 followers. I feel like a loser, i know im talented, then why dk my edits get 15 views while my friend's edits get 5k views with 300 likes when theres nothing in them, just... its not even edits, u coukd call it short clip compilations. i want support so bad, i crave it so bad, and I feel like a bitch