update on my life (tw: hitting, crying, vent)

So life has been really difficult right now,ill tell you how its came to this point, my dads always been a bad person like really bad, he's the person that made me cry the most in  my life,i went to canada to visit my mom's side of the family and had a good time appart from being dragged to weddings and my feet hurting, the plan for me was to spend a week in each of my aunties houses for like i spent a week at the oldest aunt then since my mom (she went to canada 2 years ago and didnt come back) lives with two of my auties i went there for a week, it was fun honestly but then i arrived to my youngest auties house and it kinda went bad?Like i kinda noticed that they all liked hindi music and movies and were really into the culture but i bearly knew anything abt that the first few days were fun as hell like we ate junk food and stuff but then we went to the mall and we went into a tommy h store, everything there was so ugly but my cousin still manged to like the stuff there, so i wasnt botherd when we got out we went to the nike store and like i found a long sleeve black top (my favs) that i wanted to try on so i went to the dressing room and my aunt came with just in case i needed another size (there was more stuff but thats not importent) so i try the top on (size m) and the sleeves werent tight on my arms enough so i asked my aunt to get me a smaller size and she said "are you sure? what if you get fatter." YOO??? bro who asked you like youre fat yourself shut up UGHHHH anyways, she got me a size xs surpirseeee it fits so well (take that.) they pay and like i see a spencers and im like "OMGGGG i wanna go in!!!"and they look at me like im a freak? why tho? so i guess there are legit dumb shits because they didnt think of the endless merch i wanted but the "toys" they have I DIDNT EVEN REMEBER THAT. HOW SHOULD II??? im not from america or canada or anywhere who has a spencers. also what even is there problem like why did they think i wanted a toy hm?? there freaks. so anyways we go to a store like "urban planet" i guess and we get more stuff i got a play boy fluffy pj wich in wearing while writing and another black long sleeved shirt wich im also wearing and i see a hot topic and im like "omggg hot topic!! i wanna goo" there hesitent and shi but we still go innnnn i got slipknot earrings but the store was nice ig not that dark and gloomy as i imagined, i was invader zim stuff but i couldnt ask for more, my cousin (other on) came in and said "yeah why do u like this store" and im like "why are you here if u dont like it" and goes away stuff , i gave my email and phone number to the cashier but WHATTTT??? the employes are SOOO nice omgg like love themmmmm and so we werre in the car to go back to my cousins house and my aunt kept asking me to let her see the earrings it was wear but hey idc, my cousin said " why did you buy earrings now you dont have youre ears pirced" and i just look at this dude like "are u dumb??" so i sayd "yeah were getting them pierced and do you think ill come back soon??" like ughhh so thats all for now im getting tried of typing PART TWO SOON. pic of the earrings i got