Dog Whistles and Memes (yap yap yap)

I hate the fact that I don't have the emotional capacity to educate myself on certain hateful rhetoric spread on the internet. Even if I can't immediately recognize what it is that is making me feel so uncomfortable within a space (because I don't have the general knowledge to be aware of certain hate speech) I know that something is off but, because I avoid things that needlessly upset me like the plague, I don't know what it is that needlessly upsets me.

Like, I can obviously recognize the whole "totally nice day!!" thing because that one has been around ever since I had the capacity to recognize that racism was a prevalent thing on the internet. And everyone already knows the whole double number following 7, the double S, the obvious tells from people who are shameless in their ignorance and hatred. But, I quite literally need to work on understanding that, sometimes, my momentary discomfort is far less important than my long term fear. Meaning, I need to allow myself to be uncomfortable within a space longer than 5 seconds so that I can adequately recognize what's setting me off to more easily avoid it in the future before I'm like ankle deep in a wannabe neo-fascist discord server.

Probably wouldn't happen, I'm too black and I can't control my mouth long enough to hide when I'm weirded out. But still, it's important to withstand discomfort while also recognizing that you are not immune to any degree of propaganda. 

Like the whole wave of Ch*rlie K. memes that, while often times framed as being ironic and mocking of a very hateful man that was murdered, often times serve as a sort of trojan horse to introduce those that consume it to more extreme rhetoric and conservative ideology. Similar to how Reddit's algorithm can't exactly recognize that those consuming anti-AI content don't want to see generalized content surrounding innovations in artificial intelligence but that they want to see pro-human and anti-machine content. 

All this unnecessary word vomit to say, I don't like how ignorant and hateful the world, at least on the internet, has become. I know that the internet isn't the most accurate and unbiased representation of the way that the world feels, but the sort of content people consume and disseminate contributes to a great deal of the sentiments that people hold. 

P.S. This was inspired by the fact that I saw a 15 year old black girl claiming that she felt more like a white boy in a black girl's body, coining herself as an elon musk fangirl, referring to any web-platform that didn't allow her to spread hate speech as liberal owned (calling spacehey liberal cucks), and being (maybe jokingly?) homophobic. 

Could've been trolling, could've been serious. Like I said, I don't stay long enough to find out, and in this case I'm so okay with that.