Daily blog 1 PROBLEMS WITH MY CRUSH(S)

Daily blog 1

PROBLEMS WITH MY SCHOOL CRUSH

(first year of artistic high school (Italy))

I'm still learning to use this social , and that's not simple , so if I guys have some tips to help me improve my spacehey's and English skills ;)

Well , 3 days ago I had an argument with my crush, he's a person that's really introvert and I tried so hard to be his friend, like , I am introvert too and I defended him in the class chat at the risk of putting half the class against me.

We had that argument bc he didn't want give me back the 10 euros I lent him to go watch a movie with me (I had bought the tickets online to get seats together),  and he said he wouldn't give them back to me because when we went out he had paid for dinner (that night he paid a total of 13€) , so like he earned 7 euros with that.

I swear I wasn't angry about the money I lost (I'm not that stingy🙃),  I was just sad , because I understood that he had a mentality that I don't want the Father of my kids to have (ya I date to marry), so I stopped to talk to him after that.

The days after he didn't talk to me and didn't even text me, me neither, but he always looked at me and it made me so uncomfortable, like, why are you looking at me all the time?? 😭😭

He doesn't have friends at school , but he has some friends online , and one of them ( a guy with 22 years old that sends him weird stuff) He got me permanently banned from my main Instagram account, and he didn't even say sorry for that, like , your friend did that to me, and you don't care? 

(That guy didn't even know me before I knew my crush)

SOOO yesterday , my crush texted me "you still want your 10 euros back? Or you don't care anymore??" 

Guess what I responded 

I SAID "ya I want them back" !!!

So he gave them back to me today, but he still don't text me , or talk to me (me neither bc I don't know how to react to this , like , it's my first time alive too) SOOO idk.

GUYS HELP ME WITH THAT, I think he's not my crush anymore, I can't love someone that can't see nothing thank money (like I tried so hard to make him my friend and friends with my other male friends) but I think is sad that he has nobody in that school that's his friend , and I still want that there is something between us.

IDK I'm just a teenager that thinks too much maybe.

AND...I WANT TO TELL U GUYS SOMETHING MORE TODAY...

Well , so , I started this school like 4 months ago, and from the first day I saw this guy that caught my attention. 

He's like so cute (he's not the boy I was talking ab Before), from the first time I saw him I wanted to know this guy.

He gives me these emo vibes but he isn't even emo, and he also speaks Russian (I think).

AND WEEELLLLL

I just discovered today that he has a girlfriend.

Lol.

I don't want to have anything to do with people who are already taken, but what the hell, he was so fine.

I need the universe to send me someone good to me that isn't already taken, 

Like bro , please.

Ok , that's all for today , byeee :)