You have to change

only you are the owner of your actions

What do I do if I recognize that I have a problem? What if I am socially withdrawn? What if I involuntarily push away people who are interested in me? What do I do if I am incapable of maintaining a romantic relationship for more than 2 months? Maybe my personality is the result of my social interactions throughout my life, I could blame that, say that the world made me this way... but that wouldn't change things, I would still be just as miserable.

If I am capable of recognizing my flaws, why don't I do something to change? I am doing it; I make an effort to interact more with people, not to act like an idiot toward people who care about me, not to hide what I feel, not to give up at the first adversity that appears. I'm still halfway there, but I like my new self.

People often say, 'love yourself as you are,' but now that just sounds like a self-indulgent speech to me. I can still make positive changes in my life.

i love you all