So heyyyy, I’m XenoTheChronical, but please call me Xeno, and I’ve been dealing with hearing and seeing things since I was 6 years old. I always just classified it as “sleep paralysis” through the years, and my parents chalked it up to me having a “vivid imagination”, but even now years upon years later I still hear voices but not as often, now I’m seeing things even more!! Yay!! Everyone outside my family says yk, that’s not normal!! I’m not one to self diagnose or anything, but I don’t think people are supposed to be hearing and seeing things! But there are two people who think it’s normal in my family? So basically me and my grandma had just gotten in and out, right? And I opened up to her about how I’m losing my mind (mind you I just got out of the mental hospital a few months ago) and how I don’t think I’ll be able to take care of my mom in the future since I can barely take care of myself, then she told me at her age she could see spirits?? She described when she moved to America (most of my family comes from Iran and the Philippians, she’s from the Philippians) they moved into this house and apparently her and my aunt could see a woman in all black in the top story’s window. She said how she experienced sleep paralysis and saw this very same woman. I see a total of 8 types of things in my day to day, honestly. In the mornings, I usually see this tall figure with a wide grin and glowing eyes staring at me through the window as I shower (bc whoever made this house decided it would be a good idea to put a freaking window in the shower), and it has long black hair and a long neck as well. Another one I see is the one I’ve had since 6, Dave. He’s pretty chill, he just stares at me and has a big smile and long fingers, he is like 7 or 8 foot?? Idk man, but I see way more than that too I’m just too pissed at them to give them names lowkey. I told my parents about it and they say it’s because “I’ve always been very creative”. But I saw the guy who is usually under my bed (basically looks like Dave but has big round eyes and an even wider smile) under my bed at my moms and dads, and I full on started hyper ventilating and crying. I don’t think that’s normal guys!! I have extreme paranoia most of the time, and even hear my manipulative ex girlfriends voice (I might make a post about her idek rn), my boyfriends voice, and my other friends voices whenever I’m in public (which might be normal? Idk) and I’m genuinely wanting it gone. The way my grandma described it is “these entities know your special, they know you can see them, so there going to latch onto you.” As an explanation for me seeing and hearing things. I talk to them sometimes but whenever it’s any other entity besides Dave there really bad. My grandma says my aunt can sense if a place is evil or not: like she went to her friends and said “it felt so evil, I couldn’t even stay the night” and she ended up getting a hotel. My earliest experiences with it were when I was at my bff’s house with her cousin for a sleepover. They were on each bunk bed, and I was on an air mattress across from them. I wake up at about 1am, I look over to them and Dave’s there looking at my friends cousin, and I look as he gets closer to her and then his head snaps towards me, I hid under the covers (like a whimp LMAO) and did till morning. Its never gone away for me, I see things everywhere. In my neighbors yard, outside the windows, under my bed, in my closet, on the roof, in public, everywhere. And I want it to stop. But I’m genuinely confused. My grandpa offered to get me someone to talk to about this, and my grandma thinks it’s completely normal. And my mom and dad? They just think it’s bc I have a vivid imagination. I might delete this later idk but I’m genuinely just wanting answers honestly. Thank you for reading this yap session holy
Hey, so am I schizophrenic or an empath?
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Strwbrri☆
It sounds like you are going through a very distressing and confusing time, Xeno. The experiences you are describing—seeing and hearing things regularly since childhood, feeling extreme paranoia, and having significant anxiety and emotional distress—are clearly impacting your daily life and well-being.
hamusi
That sounds very distressing. It's not normal nor is it bcz of vivid imagination. I would recommend talking to a healthcare professional about it if u can. If u wish to get an accurate diagnosis u could go to psychiatrist.
alex
hey, just want to clarify i am not a health care professional, but i do know a little on the subject based from classes ive taken, again nothing professional but just a stranger with insight. its important to note a lot of people suffering with schizophrenia dont know they have it usually, not all the time but it usually only becomes known after having it being diagnosed and treated for it. also, schizophrenia isnt just delusions or hallucinations, yes those are very key factors but theres also a long list of other varying factors. it could be schizophrenia, or it could be another neurological disorder, or it could be nothing. if this is something youre concerned about, the best advice anyone on the internet can give you is that you should speak to a healthcare professional about your concerns. thats really the only sure way to resolve anything and find out more. there are a lot of good resources out there for learning more, but always consult a licensed professional as theyre knowledgeable and there to help you. hope things work out for you
Vajra
"You're nothing but a freak of life, AND A FREAK OF DEATH!"
Well you know what they say, one man's mental illness is another man's superpower. "Weaponized Autism" and all that.
I'd say don't waste time figuring out what it is. Try and use it to your advantage to whatever extent possible.