Burnout

Idk if this is relatable, but lately I’ve been feeling crazy burnout. Growing up sucks bro 🫩.

Between school work and my own issues and stuff going on it feels impossible to find time for the things I love. I have a good example that has me super bummed. This week has been super dense with musical events going on with my school but I’ve also had to pick up more hours at work. (obviously you see where this is going) This past sunday morning I was supposed to go to an event with my choir, a caroling competition. I know it’s a fun opportunity and a chance to gain more experience which is always great. Sadly I had to go to work instead because I can’t pass up on the money since I'm saving for a car.

This Tuesday I had another choir concert at school but I absolutely couldn’t miss it since it would have tanked my grade in the class. So because of that I’m missing out on a decent amount from my check. 

On this coming Saturday, my guitar teacher invited me to sing a super nice piece he wrote for me and I had to let him down since my bosses wont let me keep moving around my schedule. So not only did I let him down, I’m losing credibility to my bosses since I’m not as reliable schedule-wise, and I keep having to have uncomfortable conversations that make me feel so bad. 

Stuff like this keeps happening to me and it feels like the stars align in such a way that everything I love doing falls on a day that I have work, so I have to either work my personal life around my work schedule or miss them entirely. 

Maybe this I’m just being a b!tch but it just feels so exhausting to deal with so many things at the same time. I know this a part of life and I have to deal with it but idk I wish I didn’t have to. 

I guess what I’m trying to say is that it’s so important to balance whatever you have going on and not bite off more than you can chew. But at the same time don’t give up on doing what you enjoy, try to find a happy medium.