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My thoughts

12/11/2025
I can't Sleep, because I keep thinking about all the bad i've done to people, and all bad people have done to me. I didn't even realize I was being mean, I wonder if they knew what they were doing to me.

12/12/2025
Why is it like this everynight? I stay up so late thinking about the past, Like how they were so mean to me, and I just put up with it because, hey that's what friends do. Right? they bully eachother but they still love eachother. But with me I would love them, and joke with them, and too be fair I would go too far sometimes. But they barely give anytime for me, beside the random message. In my own words "I would walk around the world for you, but you wouldn't walk to open the door for me" 

Went to Some thirft stores today and got the following

A PS2 with cords, and controllers - $40
Tony Hawk Pro Skater 4 - $4
Medal Of Honor Rising Sun - $7
20" 4:3 Lcd Tv - $15
ECWCS Woodland pants - $12

I'm really happy from all this Because I been wanting a PS2 for while now, and been needing a new Tv as well. The pants are nice too because I have the parka to mach them. I got everything for a good price too!

The PS2

The new Tv playing THPS4

There's a lot of games I wanna get for the Playstation like Army Men Sarge's Heros, Metal Gear Solid, Ghost Recon, Half-Life (If i could afford it), etc, etc.

12/14/25
Yesterday I didn't do alot, I did watch Windtalkers (2002) really good movie I recomend it if you like war movies. Besides that It was fend for yourself night, so I made chicken quesadillas for me, my Dad, and my brother. That about somes it up. bisides that fact I got mad at my sister.

Went to see the FNAF2 movie with my family, it was ok, but there was a group of girls being LOUD AS HELL behind us. LIKE SO SO SO LOUD. I DON'T WANT TO HEAR ABOUT HOW YOU JACK OFF TO CHICA! OR VANESSA! other wise eh. Now i'm recording music.

12/16/25
I went to St.Vinnie's yesterday and got a cassette player.

I finally finished some songs today and dropped an Ep https://soundcloud.com/hezziesherman/sets/all-road-i-would-walk-around-the-world-for-you
All Roads is a pretty straightforward song about losing friends, dreaming about them, and thinking about all the times you messed up your friendship with them. But knowing that the friendship was gonna end (like all of them do) and the failed attempts to better yourself thoughout, and going back to old ways.
I Would Walk Around The World For You (But You Wouldn't Walk To Open The Door For Me) Is just an instrumental song.

12/21/25
HOLY MOLEY IT'S ALMOST CHRISTMAS!!!! I know pretty much everthing i'm getting but i'm still so hyped. The past couple days have been ok, Some of my siblings came down yesterday and we took a Christmas photo 
I gave my brother Dexter one of my guitars an 80's MIK squire

I also got a belt buckle that looks cool
I ordered a pair of SWD goggles that i've been wanting for awhile. I sould get my new pair of jeans tomorrow, a pair of Lucky Brand 455 Relaxed Boot. I went to Epic Seconds today and got some stuff

Communion Vhs
Fargo Vhs
Karate Kid Trilogy Vhs
Sonic Heros PS2
Call of Duty Finest Hour PS2

And I went to St.Vinnie's and got 3 woodland blouses, 2 Airforce and 1 Army.

12/25/25
IT'S CHRISTMAS!!! we did mexican christmas (I'm half mexican) so me and my famliy hungout christmas eve, and ate KFC. We waited till midnight to open gifts. List of what I got
Stocking candy
Polybius shirt
Ranma 1/2 shirt
White reeboks
Black hoodie
Repro T-block cammies
Jeep cap

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kErcqEDEQV0 video of everything

I'm happy with everything I got because well. It's all things I asked for. We watch some movies as well like Rambo First Blood, Oilve The Other Reindeer, Better Off Dead. This was the first time I watched First Blood and loved it. It was so cool with Rambo killing cops and stuff. Like the Punisher, Rambo super power is PTSD. Christmas day has been the usual, slacking off all day watching tv and playing games. Went to the park and I still can't do a pull up.

12/29/25
I have become God, pwner of Noobs.

1/2/26
WOAHHHH HOW IS IT 2026?! anyways, i'm locked in i'm exercising, i'm looking for a job, i'm gonna finish school starting next year. This isn't even a new years thing, I just got future shock because my sister who my whole life i've been living with, grew up in California with her, moved to Oregon with her, moved to Michigan with her then moved back to Oregon with her. Anyways you get the point. So I need to get a life started, so I made a list and put some goals on it, My Name Is Earl style. In other news I finally have a Soundcloud follower, so that's cool.

2/15/26
HOLY MOLEY THIS IS OUT OF DATE. So let get started, The list is working, I've crossed off 3 out of 8 things on it, Get Id, get SSN card, and get a job the latest to get crossed off, I'm so hyped to start working I don't know my hours yet but I start on the 17th so hope for the best. I don't know how I got the Job, I did the interview in like 5 minutes, and I wore jeans and black plaid short sleeve button up. In other news I GOT MY PERMIT so I've been driving with my dad somewhat daily, I got a hold of it quickly. My plan is to save up as much money as I can and buy a El Camino, It shouldn't be too hard, I think I get paid minimum wage so $15.05 an hour, so if I work the max I can work 44 hours a week I would make about $530 after taxes. The good thing is that I don't need my own car until I get my license, which should be in July/August. El Camino's run about 2k - 8k depending on the condition. I wanna do some basic work to it like a new stereo and one of those locking tool boxes in the bed of it.

3/21/26
Hello!! it's been awhile since I've posted so yeah. I've started my job at Pizza Hut, it's a nice job and the pay is nice, I currently have around $670 in my savings. I talk to my online Russian best friend everyday now, shes super cool and understands me lot, I love her a lot. I decided that I want to become a plumber, the community near me have the plumbing classes, so after I finish high school I will go there. with the pay a plumber gets I want to buy a house, I told my Russian friend that if she inmigrantes to the US she can live with me. I'm still buying military surplus and recently got a complete pup tent. I really hyped for the new Spider-Man movie coming out in July, It's gonna have the Punisher and I love the Punisher, I really like the way it looks, like the filming style makes it look like a movie and not just a MCU film.