Please Don't Replace Me

12-10-2005

“The nothingness of this life has condemned me to an existence of pain and torment and agony. I have nothing to look forward to but the awareness of this melancholy. I have not experienced many joys, and it seems punishment is waiting for me not long after. Nothing awaits me in the end. No family to go home to after the stresses of living. There is nothing waiting for me and I am waiting for nothing. This monotony and tedium will be the end of me. I will be alone at my deathbed with no accomplishments holding my sense of self up. I have a new outlook on it all now. The nostalgic feel of who I once was will shelter me. Those memories of my childhood which I have held onto for all my time are the only substance to bring me solace. I can relive them. I don't have to live as I am now, I can be happy as I once was, back with my Thomas the Tank Engine sets and cushion forts, wrapped under my blanket which protected me from all the horrors that hang over a child. You’re the light of my life. You’re what I look forward to everyday while I’m at work. You’re the reason I’m happy at all anymore.”