Cognitive dissonance will be my biggest downfall

sickly cold sweat in a sickly cold night

aching in my bed

rip my body from limb to limb 

a punch in my gut and in turn a hollow hole

an abyss i wish i could just lay in 

that sinking feeling in my gut attacks again 

if only the water could wash away my fears 

maybe the water is salty like tears

and maybe the ground is grainy like sugar, a sweet way to drown 

blow out your last wish

wish me goodbye 

wish me away 

let me lay easy

cognitive dissonance will be my biggest downfall 

can’t connect my thoughts to my actions

i know it’s bad but i do it anyway 

the guilt trips me into the abyss 

blow out your last wish

wish me goodbye 

wish me away 

let me lay easy