Rantedy Rant Rant RAAAANT!!1! The Vent about my past 1/2 of a year

I hate unemployment so, so much. I've been in such a state for I think half a year now. I have no sense of time as it seems that all my days blend into one. No motivation or inspiration either. I've just been sleeping, eating and doing absolutely nothing of use for me or my future self. I had to improve my creative skills during this "gap half-a-year" while waiting for the army, but nope - The Bubble of Feeling Safe and Comfortable consumed me once again. I drew and did all sorts of crafts at the start when I moved out to my grandpa's place to escape my shitty hometown, but that just died out. It did come back a few times though.

I've no friends here in the region of Pirkanmaa. My only two people I consider real friends visited me here once each and so did my now ex-girlfriend, so there's that and I'm happy I saw them at least. Tried to go to a youth center a couple of times (or whatever the fuck you call them in this stupidass langauge), but I just couldn't talk to anyone there. I used to visit a center of that kind there back at the little ghost town I'm from, but everyone knows everyone there so it's easier in a sense. Dunno why that was such a problem to talk to those people though. I find myself to be pretty social, or at least for a Finn. Idunno. It's just hard for me to talk to people my age. Maybe I've such a shitty image of my classmates and stuff idfk.

There are a few good things about this time here in Ylöjärvi. For example, I've been able to be with my dad and grandpa which is really, REALLY cool and awesomesauce. There also have been a couple of times when my mind and motivation and inspiration have risen for a bit, but I've realised I've fallen back into the pit again and again. I'm in one of those better moments at the given time. I hope it stays like this for a longer bit.

TLDR: Rotan has no job, no friend near him and has waste time -  That suck lot. Rotan has dad and dad's dad near - That cool.