i want to know what happy feels like

this is about wanting to kill myself but not doing it because i want other things more

they’ll tell you it will end someday

so i have plans for then

though i feel like a fool for listening

for i’ve waited so long

i know my time will come one day

which is why i’m holding on

many goals i have for the future 

won’t be wasted on today’s despair

but don’t pity me for wanting to let go

im only sick of waiting

leave and let me be low

im sick of waiting forever 

i want to know what happy feels like

-remedyr.p