sick minus the virus

this is kind of like…. how depression feels to me

stuck in an empty loop of sick

a dreadful ceaseless cycle 

like a machine that operates on autopilot

with nobody behind the wheel 

like a headache wrapped in cotton

only the sharpest blade could ever pierce

stuck in a purgatory

i am neither dead nor alive

i am merely sick

and numb

and i am sick

and i am numb

stuck here and i cannot leave

that brief relief will never bring peace

i want to feel okay again

like im sure i did once

but i can’t really remember 

one day i will break free

or so i tell myself

for thats the only thing keeping me here

the hope i can feel okay again

i will feel okay again

the sick will be over and my senses will return

i just need to wait a little longer

just wait

it will all get better 

and one day i won’t feel this way

i won’t be stuck here anymore

i will be okay

-remedyr.p