how much of whaat i do is performative and how much of it is actually eme

i gennuinely do not know who i am like even tyoing this right now i have no sense of self or what i am i dont know how people go around  and like herlpehlp are people like is this nromal like do people know who they are becuase what. thats. Frigging ctrayz yo um anyqya wgat the fucj uhhhhh abnyqay yea um who is me what is who i me meme i am aeuah 🤤 no but seriously what the fuck helphelp. i cannot know who iamwho is me its not something i think about often but in the offchance i do its so puzzling like what what are we what are people what are humans are our "selveS" just a culmination of traits and qhatever the fuck like :"oh yeah i play piano hah a thats me! thats who i am!😁" like wow. i idont know anymore chat um uea.

im sorry this isnt polished or like even fucking intelligble i just felt in the mood to rant. i really dont expect muchof this myself so um yea and ohmygod reading this back is so tortourous bro i fweh90i3g4rbv bjebrvfh