i feel disgusting

its taking so long for me to gain any weight back. i cant look at myself in the mirror anymore or get dressed to go out i just feel so sickly and ugly all the time.

its so hard to eat when im still depressed and my appetite sucks fucking balls.

i got so much yummy food from the store the other day but now im sick and i have literally no interest in it :( the world hates me bruh uuggh

i hope i feel better today to eat a lot i really wanna cook but our kitchen is so messy and gross that almost makes me not want to </3

i just cant wait until i finally reach my first weight goal, then ill actually be able to like what i see in the mirror again.