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december sixth, 2025 

mood: you sound nothing like nirvana by cat crash

status: 3/4 alive

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not much today. i was hoping i’d go somewhere, or at least get something done, but no, i kind of just sat there. i have a pile of unfinished assignments to do and i refuse to do them. honest to god, i’d rather be doing anything else. i have so much to do for math, but math makes me actually fucking sick, i hate it so so so much. i’m trying to get better but it doesn’t seem to be enough. none of this shit is gonna help me in the future, aside from getting me a good test score, and it can’t even do that. i plan to be a historian when i grow up. maybe a history teacher, but i hate children and i want to make actual fucking money. i’d love to be an artist or a musician or something, but let’s face it, i can’t stay afloat in either of those cutthroat industries. 

i dunno. i don’t feel awful but i certainly don’t feel well. xoxo

-roko