Why is it so hard to find love ?

I feel empty like I’m yearning for someone to love me and I want it and don’t want it at the same time I love being single but I don’t want to be single at the same time I don’t know how to balance it and already talking to a boy is hard enough as I’m they would just think “ yea there like sooo going to date” and no cause I love talking to people but sometimes they can be fucking mean and bitchy not be that type of person but I hate it that I’m single and I watch everyone get to relationships actually not really everyone but yea and it breaks my Heart cause there someone I like but I dork think he’ll like me back and this is the only way for to I guess talk about but yea.

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