Feeling behind in deltarune

I love detarune alot, I also enjoy the fandom alot, there's alot of fun to be had, but sometimes I swear I feel like I'm one hundred steps behind everyone else when it comes to paying attention to details. Because I'll end up hearing about something, like a theory about where the next chalter is headed or just a piece of the deltarune lore going on and it will be entirely new to me and I'll just be wondering where the hell did everyone else get that?? And why am I the only one who didn't know??

Like for example, the shadow crystals, I didn't know about what those were or that they were what created the secret bosses of each chapter until like chapter four I think. I also didn't know that everyone unanimously agreed that the secret narrator who discarded the vessel was gaster until i reached into the fandom and saw everyone making jokes about the guy. Or everyone predicting that the new fountain area would be in the church, or whatever the hell that "friend" cat is, I don't even know if theres information on that weirdo that I don't know about yet

I'll hear about this stuff and everytime I feel like a giant moron because Im either not paying close enough attention to details, blantantly missing information because I didn't watch enough playthroughs, or look at toby fox's twitter account, or find some secret website, or decipher a secret code that can only be found if you click on sans five hundred times and spin around in a circle.

And the worst part about this is this isn't even just in deltarune, its also something I experienced with undertale, granted I got into undertale when i was young and I really just cared about sans and papyrus and the funny jokes and all that, but now as an adult I still feel like a moron because there's apparently way more information that I must've completely zoned out on relating to chara and asriels childhood and what happened to them and everything amd about how chara had much more to their personality than what I remembered there being and I swear i feel like im loosing my mind when I figure this out

Like I need an entire youtube channel thats just dedicated to talking about all the details and information within and outside the deltarune and undertale games that people have found and theories about where things are headed because otherwise i feel so dumbbb (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠)

Somehow I've managed to experience fomo while actively existing within the fandom, it doesn't help that I'm constantly seeing absolutely incredible pieces of art depicting areas of the game, theories, and character dynamics. Like omg I saw a piece of art of tumblr awhile ago depicting kris and noelles mom in the car after Kris recieved the soul, a theory on how Kris got the soul and why, and omg it was absolutely incredible. The emotion depicted in it with Carol's head against the steering wheel and Kris staring kinda unemotionally was incredible. Like deltarune fanart has this way of feeling so gripping and like, painfully real, like im looking at real people experiencing a horrible memory, and by god I wish I could do that. I want to so, so badly figure out an artpiece to make for detarune that resembles those pieces I love so much but I cannot figure out what to make for it. Aughh, maybe If I'm lucky the next chapter will trigger some gay artist from the Renaissance to inspire my hand to create something on the same level as the arists I've seen make incredible art

Sighh I'm just glad I was paying attention enough to understand the whole dess being missing thing, the fanart around dess's disappearance is one of my favorite things to look at I must admit

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