First time been exposed to gore online.

I’m not that kind of person who would ever intentionally watch those things, in fact, I hate it very much. But there’s been a murder case in my country recently (which I advise you not to search ab it). It wouldn’t be problem if the murder hadn’t recorded his actions and got leaked. Now, people are spreading that fucking clip everywhere and me, unfortunately saw a picture captured from the og clip. That pic has been haunting me for 3 days and maybe could keep continuing to haunting me for a few weeks later. I couldn’t even sleep probably, every time I close my eyes that pic would automatically pops up on my mind and I can’t even do anything but distracting me from it by doom scrolling and doing homework. I don’t feel safe when I’m alone and I have to turn on the light, cover myself up with blankets to feel secured. 

Now it’s 4 AM and I still wouldn’t dare to sleep. I don’t want to sleep in class because I had been caught doing it twice a few days ago (after I saw that pic).

Another thing is I can’t understand why some of my classmates could watch it with a straight face, they even watched the og clip and still functioning normally when I only saw a 0.5 seconds flashed pic and already been terribly anxious. I don’t tryna act like “different” or anything… just.. shocked…

(And English is not my native language so pls ignore the typos and grammar errors ;-;)