I Wanna Run Away So Bad 💿✮˚.⋆

    It's not that anything bad is going on or anything, but I can't get rid of wanting to just up and leave my town. It's so boring where I am and I feel like I've let myself and my life grow too stagnant. If I could, I'd buy some retro van, grab my best friend, and book it to Mt. Shasta, California. I'm originally from California, but I was about an hour out from San Francisco. I wanna go to northern California. A lot of my family on my stepdad's side lives up there. I usually go visit in summer and I'm always happier than even because I swear to God everybody there is either a fairy or an alien (in the best way).

    Even if I didn't go to Shasta, I just wanna leave. I'm not for sure on where else I'd go, but who says I have to know? Maybe I just drive aimlessly and roll a die to decide which way I turn when I come to an intersection. I'm saying all this like I even know how to drive, but I'll get there eventually. Driver's license or not, I need to leave, go somewhere. I'm not even sure if it's just boredom as to why I wanna leave. Maybe I just need to feel like I'm doing something worthwhile instead of sitting on my computer for hours on end. I want to be surrounded by everything and nothing all at once. I want to be able to sleep in the woods or in a Walmart parking lot. I want to do something new.

    Maybe I'll just go on a summer-long roadtrip, or maybe I'll never come back, who knows? But I'm holding on to the hope that one day I'll escape the confines of myself to go explore God knows where just because I feel like it and figure it all out as I go.