rants about gender dysphoria or whatever tf yippeeeee

i hate how i have a very feminine body type. i have birthing hips, my waist is slim so i kinda have an hour glass figure.

i just wanna have a flat chest, deeper voice. mainly i am a transboy but really identify as agender, i don't really feel gender to be fair, ever since i was like 4 or 5. i only found the label agender like 5 or 6 years ago and it fit me perfectly.

i really wanna start testosterone, i hope my parents eventually find a psychologist or therapist or idfk what you use. (I GO TO AN ENDOCRINOLOGIST FOR MY T1D AND THEY CAN ALSO HELP FOR HRT WHAT THE FUCK I AM A DUMBASS)

i don't want to use a binder anymore (tho i can't find it + i don't fit anymore probably) because it is also harder to breathe in and i also have a bad addiction to smoking but whatever wawawa