2025년 . 12월 . 04일

hello every - nyan ! !

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today has been quite positive for me. usually , i am depressed and miserable. i spent my days and nights wishing i was dead , but today , i had enjoyed the time i spent. i excelled on my geometry test , hung out with friends , and finally dared to eat more meals. my anorexia whispers to me that i am fat for eating so much , but today , i didn't hear anything. perhaps , god has heard my prayers. god bless ! ! !

before i forget to write this later , let me jot it down now. personally , i believe that everyone has free will and is free to do what they want as long as it isn't sinful or harming others. now , i say this because there has been a large topic on spacehey which is about proshippers. personally , i don't really find any issues with them. ninety - nine percent of them are underage and do not participate in real life toxic relationships. from what i know , a lot of them use it to relate to their own past experiences. of course , i am not condoning the morally wrong pedophiles in the world. those who find actual children appealing in any type of way needs to repent as soon as possible. i pray that the pedophiles seek repentance and find peace. likewise , i also pray that the proshipper community heals from whatever they may have experienced in the past. it isn't easy to live in a world where you are constantly reminded of your flaws and wounds , so i pray.

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on a side note , i thank everyone for helping me get through this rough patch. i know that i'll probably fall back into my suicidal and depressive state , but for right now , i am okay. for once , things feel calm. the storm has passed and the waves are gentle now. good - night everyone ! !