I'm back witch more tea

Well, in these last six months way too many things happened.

For quick context: the guy from my last post (let’s call him C) and I had another "breakup" a month after we got back together. The worst part is that my friends and I have a theory that it was because he went off being a "cabron"—as we say in Mexico— since one day when he was supposed to come see me, not only did he end up not coming, but the last thing he said was, "Mmm I’m going out, we’ll talk later" and then he didn’t text me back for about two more weeks… until I messaged him because it was his birthday and I'm stupid.

Ever since we started talking again because of that, everything went to shit lmao. He had moments where he was rude or super dry, he texted me only when he remembered, and he even quit his job and spent almost two months partying nonstop. But then he’d suddenly have these "attacks" of wanting to be sweet, wanting me to comfort him or talk nice to him and all that bullshit.
To be honest, it hurt, because it was the first time I saw him so out of control, and I just didn’t have the energy to be the only one keeping everything standing.

Another thing I didn’t mention is that I met him through a close friend that both of us have in common, and after all this happened (about our last "breakup")  I got even closer to her and to another guy who was also his friend (we’ll call him K so the story makes more sense), but C and K had some kind of argument so they stopped talking. Well, when C found out that I was getting closer to our mutual friends, and specifically to K, he started making even more shitty comments and jealous tantrums. He even told me one day, "If you keep talking to K, I’ll just go out with more girls"…
And that’s how things stayed from July to August. That month we saw each other around four times, and the first time we saw each other again after reconnecting, he made me cry lol. He made this horrible joke about already having a girlfriend, and honestly, I believed he was capable of that, so I started crying, and then he got scared and hugged me so I’d calm down, and started saying it was a joke and that if it were true he wouldn’t have even replied when I wished him a happy birthday and more bullshit.

Let’s skip to the last time we saw each other, which was early August. That day was actually really nice—no reproaches, no fights, we had an amazing time. But something in my heart knew it would be the last time I’d see him… and that’s exactly what happened.
We kept talking, but nothing felt the same. I didn’t feel the same. Then September came, and that’s when everything changed, because I met a guy completely different from him (let’s call him T). T was totally the opposite of C. T is attentive, honest, he cares about me, he has never made me feel not enough, he doesn’t throw tantrums like C, and a bunch of other things I could go on and on about. Everything moved really fast between us, and I didn’t mind because I felt so comfortable with him. So I decided to close things with C for good, because I realized I’d been grieving for a long time already, and that not only was it keeping me from moving on with my life, but it was draining me too much. And dragging out the goodbye would only hurt me more.
I talked to him and was honest—I told him how much I loved him and also how much he hurt me, and that despite everything, I didn’t want to be immature and just ghost him; I wanted to say goodbye properly. And guess what he said? Yep, HE DIDN’T GIVE A SINGLE FUCK.
The conversation went like:
Me: *explains all her feelings*
C: Haha lol, I was asleep but your messages woke me up, what’s your problem, are you okay loca? *insert pleading face emoji*
Me: Well, I already told you everything. I’m really tired and I feel bad. I don’t want to keep doing this.
C: mmmm Okay?...
Me: Well, that’s it. I think I got everything off my chest lol
C: hahaha okay, sending you a little kiss loca <3
…
What the hell?

A month after we stopped talking, he started stalking me on TikTok, and I know he was doing it so I’d see his reposteds, since we used to have that little "game" of " you check my profile, so I check yours" and so on. But anyway, the last video he had reposted just said, "deep down, it did hurt"… okay?
Whatever. After I was the one who ended everything, I felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders. And T and I became officially a couple. And even though it hasn’t been that long, I know these three months with T have been better than the almost year I spent with C.
And before anyone says the whole ‘you jumped from one relationship to another,’ I don’t know if it was really like that, because I know I had already been grieving even while we were still in contact. A part of me just didn’t want to fully let go because I thought he was the love I deserved. And when someone else comes along and shows me that’s not true, that was the final push I needed lol.
Although I have to admit that the fact that he didn’t care about all the time we shared, and that it was so easy for him, did make me sad and also angry. Because a part of me still hopes karma makes him feel what he made me feel all that time.

Now, to close this whole thing off: I know I don’t need to focus on that messy past anymore. I’m determined to grow and move forward with T, to keep being happy and build something beautiful, because I know I can do that with him.

Anyway, that’s my update. Maybe I’ll post something soon, maybe not. Who cares? I’ll just keep venting and telling chisme to no one and random people on the internet lmao. XP

That's all for today. listen to the album of "La Obsesión Factory VOL.1" it's fkn crazy!!!

xoxo, babes 💋