school and school and school

studying is becoming increasingly difficult. I'm tired of my attention constantly, but CONSTANTLY, wandering off. I'm tired of the looks my classmates give me.

My mom says I'm not stupid, I just can't focus. But now everything seems irritating.

I don't blame my mother. But I can't even trust myself anymore. And I'm tired of it. I can't find a solution. Even now, there are things I should be doing, but I just can't do them.

My closest friends are at different schools, and I had to change schools. We're in the same city, but without them, it really doesn't make sense anymore. I trusted and loved myself because of them. But now I'm going back to where I started.

It's like I'm stuck in a cycle.

And now time is passing faster. And that's tearing me apart.