is there something wrong w me??

I wrote this blog and clicked off and the thing refresh fml.

Anyhoo I was writing about how this dude who like talks to my friends and I in class, asked for their instagrams, then we showed him a post that had all of our @s and he only added them, not me. Just a second ago. Like idrc about him but it just kinda reaffirmed my thoughts before that I must have a repelling aura or something bc this happens all the time. Like when I’m in a new class, ppl introduce themselves to each other but never talk to me. That or they talk to me for like a day or two and go to hangout with other ppl. Whatever I don’t care, I tried to say but now I’m just kinda feeling bleh about it. Even when I’m talking to others with my friends, people don’t hear me or dont respond to me but will respond to my friends, like ??? And I doubt it’s intentional because it doesn’t but I don’t get it! Is it my expression? Do I have a resting bitch face? Is it because I’m typically quiet (which I’m not with my friends)? Am I that awkward??  Is it bc I’m not like pretty enough and it’s like a subconscious thing?? (I mean I thought I was decent looking but still Idfk) Is it bc I dress in dark clothes? Do I somehow have a bad reputation even tho I barely talk to anyone? Is it a subconscious thing with race cuz I ain’t white but all my friends are???  I can’t help but overthink. I doubt it’s the last thing but all these possibilities float in my head because I don’t know!

 The popular kids ofc wouldn’t talk to me, idrc abt them. The normal kids excluding my friend group kinda don’t. Even the “weird” or “artsy” kids don’t talk to me like what??? What did I do?? Like I hear ppl in my art class compliment each others art but never talk to me TT what am I doing?? Do I smell bad? I shower everyday tho ;;

It’s lowkey annoying me now the more I think about it :/ I mean by tomorrow I prob won’t care as much but still AHHHHH!! 

Maybe next semester or if not that in uni/college :(