'after an all nighter' rants again and being a bitter depressed moron

currently laying in bed, still unemployed, which is my fault.

i am just an actual neet, i hate myself for it.

i want to have a cool collection of my interests and i get so fucking jealous of other people.

they have cool limited action figurines or cool plushies.

i only have a few mangas and that's it.

i want to actually die and just restart in life.

not to be afraid of going outside, having normal hygiene, not having unhealthy addictions or being a total fucking moron.