unfortunate

unfortunately, spending my school days watching youtube videos, sleeping and playing valorant is INDEED UNHEALTHY.
the only source of interaction behind a screen...
that's not good.
the shame thats been burdening me, resting on my stomach.
like a heavy weight will eventually sink me to the deepest depths... that's not good.

shame will eat you up. consume you till you're nothing. keep you in the abyss, i'll call its "belly" will make you stay there. its swampy acidic properties will hurt and it will sting... but you like that don't you?
the shame has accompanied you for so long, you're familiar in it now.
I imagine that our poem are like schizo scripturesto some. Cryptic, gibberish and nonsensical.
but it doesn't matter. It's yours and you're proud. You revel in any sort of attention its pathetic.

a person can only contain shame for so long.
and i do have a tipping point.