hopeless dreams

you ever look up at the night sky and wonder what it would be like to stand on the moon?

or maybe your style is racing through the streets in a decked out car?

perhaps ruling a kingdom of an older time?

or maybe even something as boring as sales

me, on the other hand? i never really knew what i wanted

still don't think i have it right

maybe it's cringey and unrealistic, but part of me wants to open a teashop?

maybe teashop isn't a good word, but i don't feel like 'cafe' is either

both words sound insanely pretentious

a spot to chill, have a drink of tea or coffee or cocoa, eat a biscuit or cookie, listen to whatever music heals the vibes and just.. stop thinking about what makes life hard

something like that feels almost impossible to achieve, but here i am still wanting to reach that goalpost

i've never known what i wanted to do or be

thought i had a few things figured out when i was young, but now? nothing is set in stone

i suppose when you've not imagined having a future past the age of 18 and have been older than that for, now going on six years, you struggle to hold onto hopes because you think you can't reach them

you struggle to hold onto goals because you don't feel like you'll be here long enough to make them grow into the dreams and legacies we see other people have

either way? maybe this is something i can do, even if it's just enough to stop dreading that i've opened my eyes that morning

keep dreaming, wolfs