Internet Happiness

Thanks to the internet, happiness is now right at our fingertips! Dopamine and serotonin are coursing through my body; I feel so happy!!! This TikTok is so funny... I'll share it so you know it made me laugh! Wow, this pin is so creative; I'll save it for later! This series is so good, I'll watch all the episodes today! I don't want to disappear as long as I have the internet!!! Oh, I've had such a great day! But look at the time! It's so late! I'll turn off the TV, close my computer, and put my phone on silent.

... Silence.

... I don't feel happy.

What did I do today? Nothing? I did... Nothing? I spent the whole day settling for quick, momentary dopamine, distracting my brain with constant stimuli, but at the end of the day... I'm still me. I am still alone, with my own mind. After all, I've been alone my whole life. We're all alone, no matter how many friends we have, in real life or online—that doesn't matter. At night, we're still alone, us versus our mind and body. Soul versus life. I would like to be able to go out and find real happiness, but that involves a lot of pain, does happiness even exist? What is happiness? Everyone has a different definition of happiness, so it doesn't matter; my happiness is the fleeting dopamine rush of the internet. That's perfectly valid, isn't it? Oh... The sun's already starting to come out, and I still haven't been able to sleep at all. I think I'll just grab my phone and stay in bed. I know no other happiness, and I am not brave enough to go looking for it. I am a coward, I prefer to repeat the same routine every day rather than risk changing only to end up more hurt, I'm fine right here, where no one can ever find me.