proses proses for dessert! (2)

there is no hope left for me.
back in te past, i let it out of my grasp.
here in the present im letting it go now.
future me will have to deal with that.

i have no fight left in me.
its gone, flew out in the middle of the night.
despair and nothingness
in my void riding in tandem.
sitting inside like a heavy lump.

ayoko na. pago na akong lumaban.
ako walang bitaw.? matagal na.
tapos na ang mga araw na ako'y papalag.
bata pa ako nung 'yan ay lumipas.

a little problem, insignificant even.
seems lke the universes' heavy burden.
for me, an inconveniences is like the world is ending.
this "obstacle" would be the death of me.

a slight change, a minor one.
i'll try to fix it, Jaymie can...
im sure of it.
but her failing? that would be the end of me. 

call it constructive criticism if you want.
but im not dumb, still logical and smart enough.
i notice it, that condescending tone and leering eyes.
i caught that in your, you didn't even try to hide.

in my shoulders, theres no angel and devil.
no no oh no, its shame and only shame.
i dont get embarrassed no.
i get ashamed and crack a little inside.