I fckn hate myself

I am so damn tired and sick of the way I am. I always feel like I am not good enough in every aspect of my life, that I will always do everything wrong. I am too skinny, stupid, I hate my face, hate my voice, hate the way I talk. I am not capable to socialize because I am always overthinking that people will find me annoying and disgusting. Can't even tell that real people and just cry about it online or with AI all the time, because I am afraid that I'll get ignored again or worse, I will feel like a shit cuz most people probably feel much worse than me and I am just a spoiled kid with a lack of attention. 

Perhaps I am just a crybaby and spoiled, because I have everything I want, but with a cost.