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At the end of breaks from school, I usually feel like shit, honestly. I've been bored and simmering in my own thoughts for a week, usually with limited bursts of activity immediately followed by emptiness.
However, I just had a week off, and it was genuinely really restorative. I did oodles of stuff: went to an arts market, saw an amazing play and an objectively crappy but actually lovely folk concert, had a family holiday, chatted /w friends, went to the Renaissance Faire, etc. Nothing too special or expensive, but it was with the people I love. Now, I really get it: when people get back from a break and groan about the loss of personal time. Sitting in AP Calculus this morning, all I could think about was driving home from the Ren Faire with my best friend in the passenger seat, mumbling along together to Bob Dylan and watching the trees, steeped in honeyed afternoon light, pass us by.
I don't know if it's just my natural state, or if it's because I was low-key raised as an ipad kid, but I've never really known what to do with my free time. My parents don't get out and do much, which is fine, but I never really had a model for things to do out of the house other than buying crap (this is also reinforced by the uniquely insidious brand of consumerism that is prevalent in the U.S.). Also, my general lack of willpower usually puts me scrolling on my couch for hours, simultaneously cursing myself for wasting my precious free time. But, this time was different. I swear, it sounds mundane, but it feels like I've broken an ancestral curse or some shit. Feeling mildly content after a week of free will makes me feel like im on cloud nine...
In summary, I think I need to get some damn hobbies already.
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DoggoKnight777
I understand you! Last week, a friend invited me to his home in Paris. I'm from the coast, so I had never seen the capital. I saw the Eiffel Tower and tried a few restaurants, nothing fancy, but it was with a friend I really love, so it was a perfect break. We also watched a street performer who was singing opera; she was so talented. It was midnight or something; it was magical. Anyway, all that to say, the way back home was so hard, and I didn't feel like working or anything, so yeah, I understand the feeling.
uhg that sounds lovely!! cool that u have friends in other countries! im thinking abt doing a study abroad in france if i get the chance. i love the language & culture, even tho my skills have been steadily declining since i finished with the french that my school offers ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ
thx for the comment btw (ꈍᴗꈍ)♡
by londonfog; ; Report
You're welcome. France can be beautiful, yeah! I was low-key scared to be deceived by Paris, but it's really beautiful, not like in the cliché (Emily in Paris, I'm talking about you), but yep, really beautiful. For the language, it's the other way around for me. Since I was born in France, I wish I had better skills in English. I learned it through Netflix and cartoons, so sometimes I'm like, "Did I give off kid vibes when I talk?" Anyway, I wish you the best for your studies <3
by DoggoKnight777; ; Report
LOL i just realized i misread ur comment oops :P
but, hey, english is my first language (i'm sure it's painfully obvious that i am american lmao), so if u ever wanna chat & practice eachother's languages i'd be glad to do so!!
by londonfog; ; Report
It would be so cool! Usually i use a corrector when i have a doubt but like this i could learn more naturally! Puis comme ça tu peux aussi t'entraîner au français !.
by DoggoKnight777; ; Report
Oui!! Ce serait chouette! (mais ma français est pire que ton anglais, je me sens sûr ptdr)
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