december 1 2025

i've been thinking about my blog all day and now when i can finally get on to write i've forgotten everything i wanted to talk about xP

oh!!! first of all, in my last post i mentioned realizing i'm a trans man, which has been SUCHHHH a journey and i wanted to talk about that! basically, i came out as a trans man over 2 years ago, but then went back to identifying as genderfluid for a bit, and kind of had a lot of back and forth in my mind bc i was just rlly confused. then earlier this year, i thought maybe i'm just a butch lesbian, because i've never really felt connected to what society considers to be "a man." however, now i've just realized that i very much am a man, and just because i'm a man doesn't mean i have to fit into societies standards of what's considered "manly" or wtv.

then related to that.. i'm almost a year on testosterone now! i started while i was out as a trans man Last december 12th, and have continued bc i always knew i wanted the changes from it no matter what my gender identity was. and i'm very glad i continued, because now i want the changes more than ever...

it's so weird finally accepting myself, because even when i was out as a trans man in the past, it didn't feel like this. i finally feel comfortable and right with my identity, and it's so refreshing.

and in other news... i had my waterparks concert a few days ago! i saw them in chicago, it was amazingggg ^-^ i crowdsurfed 4 times (and it was the first show i ever crowdsurfed at), it gave me such a high i swear

i also have gotten back into making kandi lately which is so fun!! i used to make it all the time in 2020 but i kind of gave up for a while bc i just lost motivation, but i've started again and i love love love it

that's all i can think of that i had to talk about rn... and i'm gonna go play games with my girlfriend i think!! ok byeeeee X3