november dump :3 3 cheers for sweet UPCOMING december

Haiii,,, welcome 2 my.. EMAIL OF THE MONTH !11! decided to

start writing these on my computer notepad so its easier to go 

between spacehey and my fone, if you're reading this on 

spacehey, double hi 2 u, give me kudos maybe ? if youre reading 

this on emails then triple hi 2 u !..

ANYWAY,, if youre new or newly added to my email thread 

and wondering what this is, its a whole email / blog recapping

things that have happened this month !! sooo let me start

First things first, i had a sooper cool party that WAS at spoons

but got shifted to aris mums house, which i honestly enjoyed

more than being at a noisy poons (wetherspoons), i dont really 

remember a lot cuz it was a while ago but i did collect some of 

tylers hair for some reason at said party, and now its sitting in

a paw patrol mashems surprise box (look up if you do not know)

my plans with his hair is abundently clear, to put it in a resin

casted keychain, to top it off with cursive writing of his name 

i think this idea will be executed perfectly i just need to find 

the right person. 

Along these same lines, ive gotten to know my new friend group 

more and more as this month went by. im really grateful 2 have 

friends who i can actually talk about my interests and act super 

weird with and they wont automatically think to get away from 

me or whatever, when i went into college i kinda got ready to 

not have any friends because of how new it was and the idea of 

having to build my status from the ground up really irked me, 

i know i can be kinda stoopid sometimes but i think my new friend

group accepts me for that (I think..)... anyway yeah ive gotten

to know them more and i really enjoy their company, i think 

sometimes i can be kinda annoying with how clingy i am to certain

people, i guess not even clingy but just really loud and obnoxious ?

Extract from the prelude - Pou Yearning.

Today marks less than a month until i can convince my mum to 

buy me pou pet alien app. Yes they capitalise off of this shit 

now, this might be the lowest form of desperate a human can 

get to , i wouldnt even call this action human tbh... anyway ..

i hope i can convince my mum to get me pou keychain too. i need 

this little guy attached to me somehow..,

Another event that happened was finding a Rabbit build a bear 

just lying on the road next to college, the first day i found it 

i was on my way 2 colly and saw it just. there. i felt kinda bad 

but i figured since there was an apartment complex with a bunch 

of toys outside it (bikes etc) i was under the impression that 

some kid just dropped it and they would find it eventually, one 

day turned into two, and then three. i was walking the same way 

again when i felt a sudden parental urge to just take it, so ari,

tyler and me went to go and retrieve it, it was PISSING it down 

that day so part of me kinda regretted taking the EXTRA long route. 

this rabbit better fucking make me food or something bffr. anyway

i washed it and found out it had a voice box i absolutely decimated,

WHOOPS ! :V .. it only speaks in a single static noise now, sorry guy. 

i also found a hole directly where its crotch is, this scared the 

shit out of me until i found out there were holes EVERYWHERE on it, 

needless to say its been nowhere near my bed and has been sitting on

a chair until i have time to skin it and wash it PROPERLY. surprisingly 

it doesnt smell bad at all... 

My personal statement was due the next day and i didnt do it AT ALL!!

and then when i did, (with the help of my mum..) she wrote it 

so ahh (sorry) that i had to rewrite it all, jesus h christ. 

i got it done eventually though ;3...

Next was Marthas party !! 4 ciders in and i somehow managed to 

become an inside joke just by sitting on a chair waiting to go 

to the bathroom, ,, it still confuses me.

JANE REMOVER !!! - TURN UP OR DIE.... 

twas next of the series of gigs (2) this month,, NOW , it was

my first stoner corner gig, it was pregaming 2hollis, mainly 

cuz i didnt realise i was going until the night b4. the night 

was cold and i soon realised i kinda dont like it when im going

to gigs on my own, now yes i was with friends but i had no one to 

go with or back from the gig, it was kinda stressful but i managed.

i realised maybe not bringing a coat was a terrible idea when i was 

standing outside, the cropped hoodie on a night in manchester 

standing outside the ritz is something you dont wanna be doing.. 

the cocnert itself was really really good though , th crowd could

do with a personal spanking to every single one of them though. 

jesus christ , you make a seperate mosh pit for a reason , i

know i might sound like an aboslute poser right now , but sometimes

i kinda dont wanna be throttled in the head seven times directly after

a long day of college... i managed to escape to the side however

so it did calm down, Jane played some of my favs too :333 i really

like flash in the pan, dancing with your eyes closed, jrjrjr, and angels 

in camo AND SHE PLAYED THEM ALL !! only thing that could top it off would

be magic i want u OR how to teleport... anyway really good concert, worth 

the money DEFO . waiting outside for her to come out and then realising she 

infact will NOT be coming outside did multiple hit damages to me however 

Young Musician was next !! im so proud of my friends for enjoying what 

they play and being so good at it as well , i envy this sort of talent and 

confidence to play onstage , ive done it before but its just not my 

thing , i might just need my passion to come back is all..

anwyay shoutout to lili and ari for being absolute stars in YM

love u guys/p 

i went to loughborough for a bit, i wouldnt really call it 

anything too eventful but it was cool to go to..

Next was ,, 2hollis,, GULLPPP! It was actually relatively good 

tbh, i learnt from jane and stood in the corner so that people 

wouldnt try to actively give me permanent brain damage for 

being there, he played peak icl but i had to leave before the 

10th jean replay so i could catch my final train before deciding

to call my home the victoria tram station for the night, overall 

pretty cool apart from the infamous pissed on shoes, makes it 

worse that i keep my shoes in MY ROOM too, i just hope my carpet

recovers from this ..

i went to another party, nothing too crazy, i managed to talk to

a few people that i havent seen around for quite a bit and headed

home successfully :)

special callout to the SOOPER COOL THE USED AND MY CHEM SHOW 

THATLL PLAY NEXT HALLOWS EVE ! this is literally groundbreaking

I wanan give a shoutout to my wonderful bf jeremy for using the 

last of his money to buy me the build a bear emo axolotl just because

ive been yearning since april for it , thank you, i took it to the 

dentist today cuz i was so joyous ,, love you forever <3 

ive dealt with a few old habits coming back to me lately, i dont wanna 

talk about all of them but one of them is self doubt . doubt

that people just hang out with me cuz they feel bad for me , 

or doubt that i wont ever achieve what i want because of the

fact that sometimes i just am so tired physically and mentally 

to get up and do anything , having people who care around me 

makes me feel a lot better about myself but i still struggle

immensely with it, as of right now im in a good mindspace so i

have nothing to add , but these feelings come in waves . i 

struggle with overthinking too and it keeps me up at night sometimes 

which really irks me .. NOT COOL ! :( but again , having friends

to remind me that they care helps a lot ! 

BIG BIG BIIIG shoutout to my friends who have indulged me in my 

interests too ! that includes YOU , the reader ! uNLESS u r on

spacehey reading this or whateva , we all probably like the same

things anyway ...

My chem and final fantasy have played a big big roll in my life

for the past few years, ive tarted replaying ff again and my love

for the franchise has come back full force ,, ffvii best game although

i am willing to hear anyone out on any other game in the franchise ..

media swapping has been a big thing amongst friends too , i keep

not knowing what to give people because i only have like 3 solid

dvd discs that are actually worth giving someone to watch ... WHOOPS 

THANK YOU FOR READING ! give me kudos if u love , if this is an 

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you dont then you can send complaints to my voicemail if u want 

:p ! ...