My New Year's Resolutions

Okay i do understand that almost no one actually completes their resolutions. It's just an excuse to flatter yourself for a week, play around like you actually have a backbone. But honestly I feel like I have been wasting my goddamn time! I've spent so much time sitting around feeling sorry for myself and for what?!? I'm better than that. I have the whole world in front of me. Some people consider a boy to be a man at 15, and I have not been acting like one, and it's embarrassing. SO I AM LOCKING IN DUDE. I'm done with "woe is me, every other kid is so happy", I'm gonna be that kid so fucking help me god. 

here's what i'm gonna do with myself this year.

-practice my guitar for at least 30 minutes a day. 

-Join band and play at the festival by the end of the year. 

-start my etsy shop (shirts, pins, posters, zines) maybe even circulate zines around my school.

-read 5 full books. 

-come out to my mom. 

-aim to make friends everywhere i can. turn acquaintances into friends and ACTUALLY try to hang out. join this art club thingy i saw if i can. i also found out i have a mutual like an hour away from me so maybe try and get that to work??? being in band would help this since they hang out at each other's houses and stuff. 

-try to recover. focus on building muscle instead of just hurting myself.

-try to journal or blog about my day every single day.

-write and complete at least ONE full song. 

and listen even if I don't do all of this fully I still did something and I'm better for it. I need to do better. I'm tired of all this whiny "life is so hard" bs. baby steps yadda yadda whatever but we're making changes brah

'06 WILL BE OUR FUCKING YEAR!!!!!1!