sometimes my grandma will compliment my art, but in a very "her" way.
some background, if you don't know me, you don't know how melancholic my relationship with my grandma is. she's an old lady (like almost 90), and is very rooted in her old ways. she's extremely christian, and pretty conservative (she has never not voted for a conservative candidate i believe), and that shapes alot of my relationship with her.
but, because of this, she'll sometimes tell me that my talent is a "gift of god", and that "i'm so lucky to be gifted this talent". and that is so extremely frustrating. i have worked my ass off to get where i am, sometimes to the point of being so physically tired/sore that i can't do things. my talent is not some "gift". i understand that she's just "trying to compliment my skill in her own way", but, "her own way" feels like it's discrediting all the work i've put in. all the time and effort i have spent trying to get a detail right, learning to draw something new, literally tearing my fingers apart while learning guitar. all the time, i've spent perfecting my craft.
i'm tired of pretending that this stuff is just okay to me. it's really frustrating, and quite frankly, obnoxious.
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