I HATTEEE CRUSHES

I have a crush, normal, right? NO!!!! He is freaking popular and I'M THE "EMO WEIRD GIRL" He is sporty, helpful, social, smart, AND handsome... BUTTT MEE??? I'm NOT conventionally attractive, I'm am genderfluid and abrosexual, I'M NOT EVEN EMO BUT EVERYONE CALLS ME IT??? Everytime I get a crush it's on someone who'll most likely NEVER like me, and I HATTTEEE IT, SOMEONE JUST PUSH ME OFF THE EARTH ALREADY😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭