Im tired of being so boring

I hate that i sit at home every weekend, every break, every day after school. It’s all so boring and im wasting my youth. I really want to have fun and socialize and do things other than last in bed and do homework. Im starting to hate how i live. Im so bored of my life. It’s so repetitive. Ofc things could be worse and i should appreciate how i live, but things could also be better. I malidaptive daydream a lot and for the past hour i thought that i was very nice and funny and people would take me out to parties and i was so sweet that I didn’t drink or anything but i still had fun. It’s so embarrassing and pathetic but I really wish that I could escape my reality. Like is so boring and unfun that id rather just not exist at all. Ok maybe thats a stretch, i do still love many aspects of my life, but sometimes i really do think being nothing at all would be better than being what i am, and of course it would be better Than dying cause im probably going to hell. Lord pls save me.